I need to make friends.

I think I am having the same talk with myself that I had to have January of my freshman year of college. It was after an entire semester of crying in my dorm room about how horrible college was and how I was socially incapable of making friends. (You remember, Kacy).

By the end of that semester, I wanted to transfer...to UT. So glad I didn't. I just thought I wanted to because all our friends that went to UT seemed to love it and be having a great time. Soooo glad I didn't.

So that December, I decided if I expected to have friends, I had to attempt to make friends. I actually tried to talk to people in my classes for once. I made a couple friends that way, but thankfully, God helped me out a lot on that one by giving me an amaaaazing bunch of friends that semester who are still some of my best friends today.

Anyway, here I am today, feeling pretty much like I did freshman year of college. I feel like I rarely see Josh anymore, because he has been working a lot (which is great that he's working, don't get me wrong.) and I have literally no one my age to hang out with here in Allen. I wish I lived closer to Dallas so it wouldn't be a 40 minute drive to see my friends. The only friends I do have my age here are Todd and Justin, who are really Josh's friends and it'd be super weird if I called them to hang out on any given night. Besides that, my besties in Allen are Josh's family (who I really do love) and the 1 yr old babies that I babysit, Caden and Ella...exceptional babies, I have to say, but not BFF material.

The only trouble this time around in the friend-making department is that I'm not in a town that has 40,000 college students in a 15 mile radius. Making new friends in the real world is hard!!!

So that's where I'm at right now. Some days I definitely feel better than others. I'm hoping to get a job at Banana Republic that I applied for today at Stonebriar Mall in Frisco, so maybe I can make some friends my age there and make money (and of course, get a 50% discount on all Banana Republic, Gap, and Old Navy clothes!).

For tonight though, I think I'm just going to sulk, eat things that I shouldn't, and just to go all out, watch shows like Kendra and True Life: I Have Two Moms.

free time!!

First off, I'd like to thank Mr. Hans for guest blogging. I appreciate him taking the time out to post. I think it really boosted the ratings. It's true, I've been thinking about not blogging anymore, because I feel like I never have anything really interesting to say. But, here I am doing it because I have nothing else to do.

School is over, at least for the next few weeks before I start summer school June 9. It is sooo nice to not have to worry about what all I have to get done. This entire semester I've had that one class (you know, the one I waited until the last minute to finish most of the assignments) looming over my head like a dark cloud (impressive simile, i know). I kept getting further and further behind, and I just was constantly stressed about it. I seriously considered dropping the class, but when I found out that would be $700 down the drain, I decided that Rog and Lyna wouldn't be too happy if I did that. Turns out I made an A in the class. Whew. Seriously, the low standard of A&M Commerce is a beautiful, beautiful thing.

So, with no school, I feel like I have tons of free time now. It's been good... I've been reading this book that you have to read, it's called A Hole in our Gospel by Richard Stearns. It's about how living out the whole gospel means more than going to church, staying away from the worst sins, and having a private relationship with God. It's really challenging, and he talks about how Jesus talks SO much throughout the Bible about giving to the poor, feeding the hungry, and caring for those in need. It just seems to be too uncomfortable for Christians to have to do that, so we try not to think about it and go about our business and stay in our little bubbles of friends and family. We tell ourselves that there's nothing wrong with that. But God expects a lot more. Basically, if our faith is not seen in the ways that we are tangibly giving to, loving, and caring for people, then it is meaningless. It's super convicting to me, and has really made me think a lot about how I cling to comfort and ease in life. And when I don't have it in my life, I freak out and get all sad. (i.e. this year has been a hard transition and I get sad because I don't have friends to hang out with all the time) There are so many things that can become more important to us than being completely obedient to God...having nice clothes and nice things, having money, being skinny, being busy, friendships and relationships...all of the above for me. I can't tell you how many times I have literally thought, "If I could just buy all new clothes, I would feel so much better about myself" (Ridiculous). Or "If I lost 20 pounds, I would be happy!"... (Totally pathetic). We have to give up everything that we are holding on to so that we can really be open to God's will and fully love and obey Him.

Anyway, you have to read the book, sorry I was on a roll and almost rewrote the whole thing for you to read right here...woopsy...

So yeah, I am enjoying the free time and trying to not totally waste it...this can easily be done by watching countless episodes of Family Feud, The Bonnie Hunt Show, etc...beware of afternoon television.

Speaking of television, I'm going to have even more free time when LOST is over. I'm too excited about the finale. It's going to be so good! Even better, I get to watch it with Rachel Foster and Carol Hogan.

I'm bad at conclusions, so...BYE!

Hello world.

Josh here, guest blogging for Ms. Bryant. Thanks for having me first off. There is no place I'd rather be in cyberspace than right here with whoever is reading this.

So, did you hear about the Energizer Bunny? I guess he was arrested and charged with battery.

I got a job in a Blanket Factory, but it folded.

And finally practice safe eating, always use condiments.

Ok, the monologue is over. If you're still here thanks. Well I guess Leslie said in her last blog that I was working at an upscale movie theater. I'm afraid she wasn't lying. I do work at a movie theater. Its interesting to say the least. I'm trying to think of a funny story about work, but I can't get past the fact that I'm 23, work at a movie theater and live at home. So lets just laugh (or cry) about that.

I'm trying to get a teaching job for next year. I'd like to teach middle school math. I'm not having a whole lot of luck right now. Here's the deal, I had some terrible teachers growing up. So it can get a little frustrating looking for a job. If I took the high school certification test, I could probably get a job easier, but let's be honest, high schoolers are annoying. I kind of forgot about how annoying they are, but then I started working at a movie theater. Then I remembered.

So, I've enjoyed Lost this season a lot. Until last week, I thought that episode was lame. But I was talking to Leslie about it and I said something like "this season has been a lot about Jack's redemption". If you watch Lost, you probably agree, if you don't watch Lost, you probably don't care. Anyways, Leslie has been making fun of me nonstop for it. So I'm just trying to get people on my side by telling you this.

Leslie is thinking about not blogging anymore. So, I'm starting a movement to keep her blogging. Join me and lets keep Leslie online!!!

Thats all I got. Stay Sweet.

My exciting life.

Several important updates for you guys:

1. I drank a Dr. Pepper and this last week has been out of control with the Dr. Peppers. It's shameful. It goes against everything that I have been working towards for the last month.

2. I went to Carrie Burkett's wedding a couple weeks ago and it was sooo great! I got to see some good friends, like Lacey, Drew, Rebecca, Ryan Luna, etc...I'm so excited for Carrie and Andy. The wedding was really sweet.

3. Josh is now a workaholic. He got a job at an upscale movie theater/restaurant, Gold Class Cinema (where movies alone cost $29. SICK.) and then the food is all fancy and stuff. Anyway, the last couple weeks, he has been working like 11-12 hour shifts. Sometimes he doesn't get home until 1:30am! So I have barely seen him at all this week! A hard worker, that Josh Hans is.

4. I'm [probably] going to have a job this summer babysitting a 14 yr old girl who has reactive attachment disorder and is bipolar. Should be interesting. I'm meeting her this Saturday.

5. LOST last night was devastating. People died, and I cried. That's what happened.

6. Five people I know got engaged this weekend (including my roommate). That's crazy.

7. Please leave me a comment. I gave you 6 options to comment on! And yes, I am begging. I'm not above it.

k, BYE!